Friday, December 18, 2009
Just decided to blog since I'm waiting for my mp3 to finish charging. It is taking so freaking long and I wanna do other things like my homework and study because I'm really running out of time especially what's with the freaking long CIP. I don't want to go for it because it is the Christmas week plus I really need to finish up all my homework. Unfortunately, I have to go because I need the CIP hours to make my testimonial look nice. Call me selfish or what, doing this CIP hours just to make my testimonial look nice but think about yourself or others first. Sure I know that there are people who would really do this kinda thing for the experience and to help others but would you really truly do it and how many people out there are really that sort of people? I never realised that the holidays were coming to an end so soon until I read somewhere about tomorrow being the 19th a few days back and I was like 'Whoa!'. That means my outreach is in 4 days time and Christmas is next week and school starts in around 2-3 weeks' time! I feel like- NO! It's not 'feel like' but it's 'I really HAVE'- completely wasted away my entire holiday. Now that I want to make up for everything, I don't think I can.
Anyway, I was just browsing some blogs and decided to go to Wei Liang's blog just to read since I was bored. Browsing through his entries, I was surprised to see that he actually thanked all of us (his PW mates) after PW was over. And what did I do after PW was over? I didn't even thank anyone! Okay, so here's a short note to my fellow PW mates.
I thank you for helping through this whole project even though there were many tough times. Trust me, even with all the arguments and anything else that was unpleasant, I really did enjoy the experience, especially during the OP period. I also apologize for all the times that I was being difficult to deal with. That is, this apology goes out especially to Wei Liang since he was the one that I mostly opposed throughout the whole PW experience. Maybe this may mean nothing to you, but when you asked me if I wanted to go home first on the day I really had a super bad headache even though Jolene was opposed to it, I was really surprised and touched by your kindness. Even when we had no choice in the selection of our group mates, I can tell you truthfully and from the bottom of my heart, that I have NEVER regretted getting any of you as my group members. (haha, this is like seriously not a short note but yea, really want to thank you guys for putting in so much effort.)
Anyway, with regards to that note, I would also say that I'm gonna try practise some stuff after being reminded by God's Word. It's a secret for me to know and work on it. Haha but if you do want to know, yes, you can ask. I don't really think anyone will find it a big deal anyway unless you really know me very well.
As for yesterday, I really had lots of fun with Tricia. (: Let's do it next time again!((: Our personal one to one time. (: Haha and I think yesterday was the day I was called 'weird' the most number of times. Don't worry though, no offence was taken. I wouldn't really say it's a compliment but it was not an insult either.
Anyway, after Tricia mentioned about how someone thought about how I felt for you, I've been doing some thinking. You know what, sometimes I just feel so exhausted from my friendship with you, I just want to give up. I never know what you are truly thinking or feeling about me and you never really seem to make any effort for me. I just wonder who I am to you. That's why I've never felt secure in my friendship with you and maybe that's one of the reasons why I do things that cause people to have the wrong idea about me. I feel like I'm on a never-ending chase for a reward I want. Just a simple reward. The reward? To know that I'm truly your friend. I want a normal friendship with you. Do you know how sad it makes me when I see the friendships you have with others and then I start assessing them against the friendship I have with you? I should stop, it's really tiring me out. Yet, my irrational mind still continues to strive on.
I guess some people can now figure out who the 'you' mentioned in some of my posts refers to.
love, mercy - ; 10:35 AM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I haven't been blogging for so long. Anyway, I went to NUS for some Chemistry workshop for the past 2 days. They were okay. Not very fantastic as I wanted it to be. Either that, or it is because I've started to hate Chemistry ever since I went to JC. The only nice parts were the lectures we had on the second day where it was very interactive with the lecturer showed us a lot of very cool and fun experiments and that the quiz was cancelled. Can you imagine having a test for a workshop you volunteered to sign up for?! The rest of it were very long experiments that caused a lot of perspiration- which lead to me smelling stinky- and my feet to become super painful. I will never enter Chemistry when I go to university!
love, mercy - ; 10:27 AM
Friday, November 13, 2009
PW is officially over!(:(:(:
(...feels kinda weird though)
love, mercy - ; 11:13 AM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Wow. My eyes are super tired and painful after such a long day but I simply cannot help but come online because of the near smell of liberation. Thank you everyone who remembered and prayed for me!(: I hope I'll do well overall. Next up, the last part of I&R. Retarded thing.
love, mercy - ; 4:59 PM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Expectations from others can really cause one to fumble and falter. Today was a real let down after yesterday where everything went so well. Well but they can't completely be blamed 'cause I somehow felt kinda out of place today too which could have caused my lousy presentation. I will do much better tomorrow! I must!
Anyway, the past few days have been pretty good even though we had to go to school every single day. I'm finally getting along well with him after the whole process and I'm feeling really happy about it. I was even surprised about what he did on Monday. Another thing I'm happy about is the talks some of my classmates and I had yesterday and today. The atmosphere was really so warm and nice. I wish that could actually have that every single school day. I was kinda sad though after I found out about some things. I mean it's not like I'm very close to some of them but it feels so sad to know that some of them would be retaining or even leaving the school. 09S204 just wouldn't feel the same again.
Tomorrow's results day...
love, mercy - ; 5:14 PM
Monday, November 02, 2009
Okay, I haven't blogged for quite awhile right? Super exhausted right now. I came back from OP rehearsal quite a few minutes ago.
One down. Two next Tuesday. I seriously can't wait for OP to be over then I would be free! Okay, not exactly free since I still have to start studying again for next year but I'll still be freer as compared to now. As for Chinese, I just hope I get at least an overall E or S for it and that I won't ever have to take it again!
My gum is sore...): Hope there's nothing wrong with it. I'm really worried. Gonna ask Daddy to see me maybe by this Saturday.
love, mercy - ; 7:05 PM
Friday, October 02, 2009
Wow! It feels so good to be blogging again since I haven't done so for more than a month? Well, exams are definitely not over yet but it's sure good to take a day of break after a whole week of crazy studying and examinations. I just hope I get through the promos and I didn't waste a year in MJ. The chemistry exam made me rethink stuff though, about 'what if I actually don't get through the promos'. I'm glad to be listening to my mp3 music again and I get to
READ again. Wow. I can't wait to get my earphones so that I can actually use my mp3 without having to rely on the computer.
love, mercy - ; 8:07 PM
snapping shots